I am always concerned about what people think. I want to fit in; I want to be liked; I don't want to be alone. Sometimes, I wonder WHO I really am... am I the person I think I am? I know a lot of times, people make themselves act one way for so long, they lose themselves. Maybe this is deep... maybe it's some crazy identity crisis, but I really want to be authentic. Authentic with a capital A. I don't want to be ashamed of who I am, and I don't want to wonder who I am. So, here are truths as I know them:
- I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God. He died on the cross and rose again to save my soul from Hell.
- I love my husband very, very much. He is my best friend, my true love, and my rock.
- I love my parents; they're awesome.
- I love my family, even if I don't like them all the time.
Here are things I truthfully, Authentically want:
- I desperately want a baby - family is so important to me, and I want to have one with my husband.
- I want a house for our future family; a place of our own to really call "home".
- I want to become healthier so that our family can be healthy and avoid some of the issues I know I've had.
Here are some random things I know are true... even if they aren't important:
- I love pink. Really.
- I love having red hair. NOT blonde. NOT brown. Red.
- Shoes. Makeup. Accessories. Awesome.
- JCPenney is my favorite store because they have everything.
- Pizza Hut is the best. Really.
- Popcorn is my favorite food.
Now, is any of this important? Yes - all of it is, because it's who I Authentically am. I think remembering all of this is helpful, because it's a base. Yes, even the popcorn.