It has been such a long time since I have posted, but I really need to talk about what just happened to me this evening.
I am babysitting for a family I know who are strong Christians and raise their children in a loving and Christian home. The girls are really smart, are into reading, learning, etc... and are pretty much amazing. Tonight before bed, they wanted to read a book, of course. They picked a Bible story book, and I said we could each pick a story.
The four year old picked "Joseph and the Coat of Many Colors". As we read it, the older one (the younger one too, but not as much) asked questions about the story... why did they sell him? Why did they not like him? etc... I explained that they were jealous, but that God makes everything happen for a reason - even things that seem bad are happening to make something else good. She asked why he forgave them, and I said because God has shown us grace, we should do the same to others. She didn't really understand, so I explained that grace was what God has shown us when he forgives and loves us even when we do bad things. Then she said, "I know about grace!" and started singing Amazing Grace. I seriously teared up - it was so touching that this young girl, she is seven, knew that grace was amazing and it saved us. She told me that she lied sometimes, and when she said it, she got teary eyed. I asked her why, and she said it was because it was hard to admit, but with the grace from God, she knew He forgave her. Wow.
Going on, I picked the story of the woman at the well. There are a LOT of different ways that this can go, but this book turned it into liking people who we might not know and are different from us. The older girl was still talking about grace and how it worked in this story, and she said that God was like our parent, etc... I brought up how everyone is a brother and sister in Christ. She picked right up on this, and started talking about these kids in her class that were not her friends - but that she wanted to be nice to them because they were her brothers in Christ, and that she would try to be nicer to them. She said she wanted to show them grace like God shows us grace. Again. Wow.
The next story she picked was the Widow's Mites - the story about giving God your all. She wanted to read it because she didn't know what a widow or a mite was. I read the story and explained what happened. She told me that she wants to give everything to God and help Him. Wow.
The NEXT (and last) story was called "Humble Jesus"... it was the story where Jesus washes the disciple's feet. She thought it was a great story, and said that she wanted to be humble in a play she was in. She WANTED to be Dorothy in this Wizard of Oz play, but she is the mayor instead. She said it was a great part, but she doesn't want to make anyone feel bad if they really liked it as much as she did.
The girls were really sleepy by now, especially the three year old, so I asked if they wanted to pray before bed. They did, and I helped them say the "Now I Lay Me..." prayer. At the end, the younger one said she wanted to bless "the animals, mommy, daddy, and the people in the world." That's great, and I was so proud of her. The older one said the same thing, and then paused, and said, "...even those people I don't know or I don't like, because they are my brothers and sisters in Christ. So bless them. Amen." I told her it was great that she was doing that, and she said, "oh wait! I forgot! And bless all of the animals in the world, even the ones I don't like, like spiders and snakes, because they are your creation. (pause) And kitties who pee in the house and bite... I hope she (referring to their former cat, who did what she mentioned) is happy in her new home. Bless them all. Amen."
The faith of a child - it is truly amazing. Matthew 18:1-8 says,
"1At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?"
2He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
5"And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. 6But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.
7"Woe to the world because of the things that cause people to sin! Such things must come, but woe to the man through whom they come! 8If your hand or your foot causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life maimed or crippled than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire. 9And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell."
Ok, so the end is a little dark, but you get the idea. It is truly amazing. These children, three and seven, were LONGING to learn about God and His Word. They wanted to apply it in their daily life. They asked questions, thought of examples, and wanted to hear more.
During this whole time, I felt complete. I felt as though I was doing something I was born to do. This is my gift - God wants me to teach little children about His love, His grace, His mercy, and His son. He gave me the skills to speak in a way that children will understand, the creativity to intrigue them, and the passion for their spiritual journeys. It was a light to show me that I was doing the right thing. It has been so hard lately - I am almost done with school, and it seems that every place I look there are no jobs or they reject my application. It is hard because I know I am meant to do this, and I have hundreds of ideas waiting for the moment when they can be sown and reaped. I feel that this is a time for me to learn patience and humility, and I can tell you right now, it is trying. Tonight was really an amazing experience, and I cannot WAIT to have it happen again.
Dear Lord,
You know how much I want to do Your work in the life of children. I humbly ask that you provide me an opportunity in which to do so, but I will also be patient and wait for your plan to unfold. You know me inside and out, Lord, and I fully and completely trust in your eternal guidance and love. Thank you for everything you have given me, and I especially thank you for this opportunity tonight to spend some time in your Word with these children. It rejuvenated my soul and encouraged me to stay true to You - which is exactly what I needed, which is why You provided it for me. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
In your name, and with my love - Amen.